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today i was reminded how lucky i am to be my father’s daughter. 

i need to remind myself EVERYDAY of his sacrifice and commitment to my brother and i. he doesn’t ask anything of us. nothing. when we were younger it was good grades, now that we are older it’s ‘a career job, financial stability, kids’ you know that normal.

sometimes i am hit with the feeling that i am the most selfish daughter ever and i just take all my parents (more so my dad’s) and blow it on clothes/trips. i am enjoying myself with my parents money. i’m the worst daughter ever. i mean it COULD BE worse, i’m not spending it on bailing myself out of jail or to feed a cocaine addiction, but that’s all relative.

i think that my father has always been like a superman in my life. he knows all the answers ALL the time. today was no different. because he hardly screws up or forgets things, when he does it’s like it hurts that much more. that’s totally unreasonable though. he is human, he makes mistakes, he has flaws. to me he always has all the RIGHT answers and it’s to him that i seek the most approval.

kids, your parents do know what’s right for you. i know that you think that they don’t, but they definitely do.

with my boyfriend, father and brother, i feel BY FAR the richest and luckiest person.

today i spent the day with my dad.

he expressed his desire to have grandkids and looked straight at me.

does my dad know that this is it for me already? he hasn’t even re-met Jordan and he is already telling me that he wants one boy and one girl grandkid. WHOA. when did this happen? already dad has shown more interest in jordan than any of my previous boyfriends. i think that dad knows.

i told dad that i was planning on moving in with jordan in june/july and he was surprisingly supportive. he was happy that i had a plan and let him know. he asked about jordan’s future and then asked me if after a year and a half if we would be getting married? dad also was concerned about sharing babysitting rights with my mom. HAHA! i love my dad.

i can’t even explain the happiness that this brings me. before my mom and dad even re-meet jordan he has already won so much favour. my mom told me this morning that she wanted to make a special trip down to toronto to see jordan. i almost cried again.

the parents are CRAZY supportive already. wow.

my family has been asking a ton of questions about my new boyfriend.

here is what you need to know:

• he is a mechanic
• he is a gentleman
• he stands up to me
• he was my first love
• he will never hurt me on purpose

today was no different. i went to see one of my mom’s best friend and she asked a ton of questions about jordan. they were talking about our future and my mom asked me point blank if i saw a future with him. 

it’s impossible to lie to my mother. after a little hesitation i replied with a yes. i hestitated because it’s hard to explain how i can already know since we have only been dating for 2 months. i just know. she didn’t seem surprised that yes was my answer.

she told me afterwards that she had told her husband that she believed that this was in for me. that jordan and i were going to get married. i cried. we both cried. hearing her say that was the acceptance and confirmation that i didn’t think that i was going to get so early in my relationship with jordan.

i have no reservations telling my friends about the future with jordan but it’s different when it comes to my parents. i don’t want them to think that i am rushing into something cuz it does appear that way. hearing my mom said that was just the most amazing feeling. 

so this is it. no more dating for this girl.

i miss him so much right now. i’m such a freaking sap. i can’t even describe it. we text all day, every day. i feel like the luckiest girl EVER.