| d e e j |

daddy's little girl

Thu, 29 Dec 2011 17:33:59 -0500

today i was reminded how lucky i am to be my father’s daughter.

i need to remind myself EVERYDAY of his sacrifice and commitment to my brother and i. he doesn’t ask anything of us. nothing. when we were younger it was good grades, now that we are older it’s ‘a career job, financial stability, kids’ you know that normal.

sometimes i am hit with the feeling that i am the most selfish daughter ever and i just take all my parents (more so my dad’s) and blow it on clothes/trips. i am enjoying myself with my parents money. i’m the worst daughter ever. i mean it COULD BE worse, i’m not spending it on bailing myself out of jail or to feed a cocaine addiction, but that’s all relative.

i think that my father has always been like a superman in my life. he knows all the answers ALL the time. today was no different. because he hardly screws up or forgets things, when he does it’s like it hurts that much more. that’s totally unreasonable though. he is human, he makes mistakes, he has flaws. to me he always has all the RIGHT answers and it’s to him that i seek the most approval.

kids, your parents do know what’s right for you. i know that you think that they don’t, but they definitely do.

with my boyfriend, father and brother, i feel BY FAR the richest and luckiest person.

confirmation from dad

Sun, 25 Dec 2011 20:47:22 -0500

today i spent the day with my dad.

he expressed his desire to have grandkids and looked straight at me.

does my dad know that this is it for me already? he hasn’t even re-met Jordan and he is already telling me that he wants one boy and one girl grandkid. WHOA. when did this happen? already dad has shown more interest in jordan than any of my previous boyfriends. i think that dad knows.

i told dad that i was planning on moving in with jordan in june/july and he was surprisingly supportive. he was happy that i had a plan and let him know. he asked about jordan’s future and then asked me if after a year and a half if we would be getting married? dad also was concerned about sharing babysitting rights with my mom. HAHA! i love my dad.

i can’t even explain the happiness that this brings me. before my mom and dad even re-meet jordan he has already won so much favour. my mom told me this morning that she wanted to make a special trip down to toronto to see jordan. i almost cried again.

the parents are CRAZY supportive already. wow.

Merry Christmas from my family to yours.

Sat, 24 Dec 2011 23:39:50 -0500

Merry Christmas from my family to yours.

the One

Sat, 24 Dec 2011 23:21:37 -0500

my family has been asking a ton of questions about my new boyfriend.

here is what you need to know:

he is a mechanic
he is a gentleman
he stands up to me
he was my first love
he will never hurt me on purpose

today was no different. i went to see one of my mom’s best friend and she asked a ton of questions about jordan. they were talking about our future and my mom asked me point blank if i saw a future with him.

it’s impossible to lie to my mother. after a little hesitation i replied with a yes. i hestitated because it’s hard to explain how i can already know since we have only been dating for 2 months. i just know. she didn’t seem surprised that yes was my answer.

she told me afterwards that she had told her husband that she believed that this was in for me. that jordan and i were going to get married. i cried. we both cried. hearing her say that was the acceptance and confirmation that i didn’t think that i was going to get so early in my relationship with jordan.

i have no reservations telling my friends about the future with jordan but it’s different when it comes to my parents. i don’t want them to think that i am rushing into something cuz it does appear that way. hearing my mom said that was just the most amazing feeling.

so this is it. no more dating for this girl.

i miss him so much right now. i’m such a freaking sap. i can’t even describe it. we text all day, every day. i feel like the luckiest girl EVER.

Mon, 12 Dec 2011 13:51:38 -0500

GET ON IT.

SO ADDICTING.

the right time

Fri, 04 Nov 2011 16:06:47 -0400

so i’m officially dating my first ever boyfriend again. it’s crazy. it’s such a whirlwind that i haven’t even had time to sit down and just let it all sink in. i sit in his car with him sometimes look over and CANNOT believe that it’s him staring back at me. like how did this happen after 13 years? how did we find each other again?

how times has the timing been wrong? how many times have i thought about him? now the timing is better, and we are going to give his a legit shot. it’s nerve wrecking sometimes.

i re-met the parents last week. they freaking LOVED me. it was comfortable. his parents are adorable. jordan said that i blew them out of the park, i’m glad cuz i was so scared.

there is a part of me that is scared that i am in love with an idea. in love with a fairytale ending. i’ll just have to see how i feel once this is all settles.

NYC bound

Fri, 21 Oct 2011 00:37:53 -0400

packing for NYC with pri tomorrow morning.

this trip just crept up on me so fast.

i’m not ready at all. it’s insane, usually i have a list of things that i need to get done or whatever, i’m getting up in 4 hours for a 6:15am flight to NYC.

WHAT THE HELL?!!?

seriously, 26 has been the most incredible year of my life so far.

dramatic week

Sat, 15 Oct 2011 23:53:27 -0400

i almost got into a fight last night at the club.

my friend’s girlfriend smacked me in the face with her clutch last night when i tried to break up a fight that she started. her boyfriend started to shove up on a guy that she was grinding with in front of her own boyfriend. WTF is her problem? she goes and smacks me across the head with her clutch.

icing on the cake to an extremely dramatic week.

i feel like this past week has been an entire season of 90210. where did this all come from? last week i was trying to figure out how to break it off with the guy that i was seeing during the summer.

re: puppy love: meet up

Fri, 14 Oct 2011 01:23:37 -0400

best. date. ever.

there has always been something that felt so unfinished with him. always. maybe i’m making this into something that it isn’t but the starting is nice so far. we are hanging out on saturday again. i’m excited.

the funny thing was as much as i thought that he was a ‘stranger’ it was sitting next to someone that i had known for years but just needed to learn the little details of their lives.

there is some weird magnetic pull that is between us.

this could be the fairytale ending. but of course i am getting way too ahead of myself.

puppy love: meet up

Thu, 13 Oct 2011 19:02:31 -0400

tonight i’m seeing the first ever boyfriend.

so far MEGA points, he just called to tell me that he was going to be about 20 mins. i do enjoy an accurate ETA. i’m such a geek. LOL!

it’s ridiculous that even though you have known someone pretty much your entire life, you really don’t know them at all.

i am essentially getting into a car with a stranger tonight who i have a past with. what a strange feeling.

SENS OPENING NIGHT!! that’s right, i am rocking my Redden...

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 18:13:40 -0400

SENS OPENING NIGHT!!

that’s right, i am rocking my Redden jersey. i don’t even care that he is overpaid and in the AHL.

he will always be my favourite. dedication or stupidity? lol!

So excited for the season to start! off to the bar with my Wings loving friend Pat to watch the Wings/Sens kick off the season together!

puppy love revisted

Tue, 27 Sep 2011 22:02:00 -0400

the universe has a weird way of coming together when you least expect it to.

today my first ever boyfriend added me to facebook. no big deal right? WRONG. i had an internal freak out.

my first every boyfriend and i have a strange intertwined past. we grew up together, i taught him how to tie his shoes, went to his 6th birthday party and he is in some of my childhood birthday party pictures too. when we started to date when we were in grade 7 it was by accident, it was an experiment at first, then i started to like him. he was my first kiss. we dated for most of grade 7 and 8 with break ups in the summers. people always told us that we would always just get back together. at our grade 8 grad, our moms talked about when we were little. weird.

when we hit high school we didn’t get back together. he tended to rub people the wrong way and was sort of a bully but even as his ex girlfriend he was never mean to me at all, sorta sarcastic, but not mean.

he moved away in grade 10 and i didn’t hear from until the first year of university. i had moved to toronto by this time and kept getting this call from the same number so one day i actually answered it. it was him. he had called my dad in ottawa to find out what my number was here in toronto. crazy right? we met up with our other friend a couple weeks later and it was crazy, like the 6 years had just flown by. we kissed.

eventually we stopped talking, but every year he would find some way to contact me to tell me that he was coming to Toronto and that he wanted to see me. every year for 3 years i would go to see him. every year i thought that it would work out differently but it was inevitable that we would lose contact eventually.

the last time that i saw him was right before i started to date adam. i was sort of seeing another guy during that time and when he tried to kiss me again i had to put my foot down and i told him that i was seeing someone. of course it wasn’t what he wanted to hear, but i didn’t hear from him again until today.

the weirdest thing is that i had a dream with him in it the other night and i went on to wonder if he had facebook. of course he didn’t, which i am not surprised, since he was never into msn or email either, then he goes and finds me on facebook? TRIPPY.

this guy has always held a special spot in my heart. maybe because it’s the first kiss, first boyfriend title… but even when i was 13 with him i felt safe. i know that he would be the first to defend me and throw punches and i would have to be the one to hold him back.

i wonder if he is still the same person.

i’m not sure how i feel about this entire thing. i may just be in the love with the idea of a fairytale romance that ends exactly the way that i want it to end, in a complete circle? wouldn’t that be something and maybe unlikely.

who knows, nothing might happen, then this entire freak out was for no reason and i feel like an idiot now. LOL.

Some of the highlights from my awesome Vegas trip with my best...

Tue, 27 Sep 2011 19:06:06 -0400

BEST FRIENDS

HOK FROM QUEST

the Aussie

fat tuesdays!

drinking, drinking, drunk

Some of the highlights from my awesome Vegas trip with my best friend.

seriously, 26 has been the best year of my life.

doing things for me.

so far 26 is the best year of my life

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 23:26:28 -0400

so many good things happened this year (&one majorly shitty)

THIS YEAR I AM SO BLESSED.

just booked my next vacation. at the end of october i’m going to be with my friend to visit our other friend in NEW YORK CITY!

yup yup yup.

it’s sooooo ‘cheap’ since we are staying with our friend and air canada was having a seat sale. i’m young, i SHOULD be having these adventures. right?

best friend trips

Sun, 11 Sep 2011 23:49:50 -0400

so i’m back. i have been back for a few days now and it sucks. the week in Vegas went by way too fast. it felt as if we weren’t there for long enough and let me tell you that a week in Vegas is actually a really long time.

when i arrived in Vancouver i couldn’t get through customs fast enough to my best friend waiting on the other side. my entire body was jumping up and down that i wanted to cry happy tears. it seems like yesterday that she was waiting at the airport for me.

sure. i miss the Aussie boy a little (let’s be realistic, i’m not holding my breath or anything) but what i miss the most is my best friend. taking a vacation with ONE person is difficult. don’t let anyone tell you differently. even your best friend is still a lot to take in 24/7. when they are the only person that you know it strains the everyday activities sometimes. but i wouldn’t change ANYTHING this trip.

last minute while in Vegas we switched her flight to Denver so that we could at least fly from Denver together. when we parted in Denver i cried. i cried A LOT. i realized that for the past week of my life my best friend has been by my side to laugh with and talk to. when i got onto that plane she wasn’t going to be there in the morning. i tried to hold it together, but i turned into a blubbering idiot and cried all of my make up off.

i think that the highlight of my trip was drinking all day with Talia and enjoying Vegas permanently tipsy. this way everything was just freaking hilarious and we never cared about what ANYONE thought about us. we said whatever, did whatever and were as loud as we wanted. yes, we were THOSE obnoxious girls and i loved EVERY SECOND OF IT.

obviously another highlight was Aussie boy and i may or may not share that, but he was HOT. yeah, i felt like it was a personal conquest. i honestly think that i have been bragging about it a little too much.

thank goodness my brother and his best friend just came home because i would be left to my thoughts and probably cry myself to sleep. maybe i’ll engage in some Pants Party Time.

last day in vegas!!

Tue, 06 Sep 2011 20:51:00 -0400

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last day in vegas!!

Thunder from the Down Under & Quest Crew sighting!

Mon, 05 Sep 2011 18:46:36 -0400

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Thunder from the Down Under & Quest Crew sighting!

my best friend: the disaster

Sat, 03 Sep 2011 00:34:17 -0400

she is ALIVE!! she feels like garbage.

btw: in my next video i’m going to show you the shoes that i have that people have been commenting on! i seriously LOVE LOVE LOVE these boots.

Video

Sat, 03 Sep 2011 00:11:34 -0400

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soooo vegas boys?

Fri, 02 Sep 2011 04:58:48 -0400

never have i been gawked at as much as i have been in vegas. HOLY. at the same time, it’s rather the ego boost. it’s definitely some mixed reactions.

today we covered a lot of ground. we saw at least 6 hotels today and walked half the strip in our HEELS! i was impressed for sure.

men/boys here are RUTHLESS. so ridiculous. they just openly stare at you but don’t really say anything that’s creative and personally i just walk right by them. i must look like the biggest bitch, but honestly, i would talk to them if they had something to say to me.

| d e e j |

daddy's little girl

confirmation from dad

Merry Christmas from my family to yours.

the One

PinTerest

the right time

NYC bound

dramatic week

re: puppy love: meet up

puppy love: meet up

SENS OPENING NIGHT!! that’s right, i am rocking my Redden...

puppy love revisted

Some of the highlights from my awesome Vegas trip with my best...

so far 26 is the best year of my life

best friend trips

last day in vegas!!

Thunder from the Down Under & Quest Crew sighting!

my best friend: the disaster

Video

soooo vegas boys?