the universe has a weird way of coming together when you least expect it to.
today my first ever boyfriend added me to facebook. no big deal right? WRONG. i had an internal freak out.
my first every boyfriend and i have a strange intertwined past. we grew up together, i taught him how to tie his shoes, went to his 6th birthday party and he is in some of my childhood birthday party pictures too. when we started to date when we were in grade 7 it was by accident, it was an experiment at first, then i started to like him. he was my first kiss. we dated for most of grade 7 and 8 with break ups in the summers. people always told us that we would always just get back together. at our grade 8 grad, our moms talked about when we were little. weird.
when we hit high school we didn’t get back together. he tended to rub people the wrong way and was sort of a bully but even as his ex girlfriend he was never mean to me at all, sorta sarcastic, but not mean.
he moved away in grade 10 and i didn’t hear from until the first year of university. i had moved to toronto by this time and kept getting this call from the same number so one day i actually answered it. it was him. he had called my dad in ottawa to find out what my number was here in toronto. crazy right? we met up with our other friend a couple weeks later and it was crazy, like the 6 years had just flown by. we kissed.
eventually we stopped talking, but every year he would find some way to contact me to tell me that he was coming to Toronto and that he wanted to see me. every year for 3 years i would go to see him. every year i thought that it would work out differently but it was inevitable that we would lose contact eventually.
the last time that i saw him was right before i started to date adam. i was sort of seeing another guy during that time and when he tried to kiss me again i had to put my foot down and i told him that i was seeing someone. of course it wasn’t what he wanted to hear, but i didn’t hear from him again until today.
the weirdest thing is that i had a dream with him in it the other night and i went on to wonder if he had facebook. of course he didn’t, which i am not surprised, since he was never into msn or email either, then he goes and finds me on facebook? TRIPPY.
this guy has always held a special spot in my heart. maybe because it’s the first kiss, first boyfriend title… but even when i was 13 with him i felt safe. i know that he would be the first to defend me and throw punches and i would have to be the one to hold him back.
i wonder if he is still the same person.
i’m not sure how i feel about this entire thing. i may just be in the love with the idea of a fairytale romance that ends exactly the way that i want it to end, in a complete circle? wouldn’t that be something and maybe unlikely.
who knows, nothing might happen, then this entire freak out was for no reason and i feel like an idiot now. LOL.
